Today I want to talk about something personal, but before I do I want to put a big ole' disclaimer on it. ***People come in all shapes and sizes and what is right for some may not be right for others. I am only talking about me!***
And the truth is...I am FAT.
Have you every seen a body shot of me...there are like two on this entire blog and I have posted almost 400 times. I dislike my body very much right now. I am 5'8" and 200lbs (I know this for a fact because I just went to the doctor last week). And if you read my blog often you know I love candies and cookies! LOVE.
So where I'm at is not terrible but it's bad and you know what it HURTS. I can feel it in my knees and in my back and I just don't "look" like myself anymore. I don't have the energy I used to and stupid things wind me. I have gained 30 pounds since we moved to Chicago less than 2 years ago. That's more than 1 1/4 pounds a month! Needless to say this is why you never see a fashion post from me. So something has got to change.
First thing I did a week ago - I installed the My Fitness Pal app on my phone.
And I started tracking everything I ate. WHOA. I was putting so many empty calories into this body of mine that it seriously scared me straight - straight away from my box of cookies (I didn't even eat the last two!). I mean it was all sugar and carbs and fat. You can only exist on Red Vines, Diet Coke and cookies for so long I guess.
I also got my Fitbit this weekend.
This little baby tracks your steps, stairs, calories and sleep patterns. And if you stay active your flower "grows" ;) I wear it on my hip in it's little holster and at night I sleep with it in a wristband. It also syncs up with My Fitness Pal. So if I've been a good girl and done some biking or extra walking it adds calories to my diet for the day. Can you say Skinny Cow Ice Cream sandwich = 40 minutes of biking around the neighborhood. I already earned 2 this week :) I also love the sleep tracking function - I knew I was waking up a lot at night!
I don't know why I'm writing this. I don't want anyone to say "Oh you're not fat." or something like that. I don't really want any encouragement. I just know a lot of us have thing we are "working thru" and sometimes putting those things out in the open helps make us more accountable. I don't want to eat right and exercise for a week , a month or a year. I want to change some seriously bad habits.
So here's looking forward to some fashion posts :)